Conciousness

I know it is a hard thing to do if you have to cultivate the feelings with someone who you don't like to be with.

Therefore, I hope this matter will come to an end.

I just wanna say that maybe i am not the richest, not the one good in looking, but I would admit that at least I am the most ambitious, responsible and caring person if she really give me an opportunity.

Anyhow, it's too late and useless for me to say this because she will never ever give me a damn. haha...

That's not what she want.

I also know that she expect me to give up,fine, I give up now.

I give up because I think I can't read her mind, I don't even understand her.

What to do?

Go back to my life is more happier.

From the beginning till the end, I didn't blame her even though she says that she would hurt me.

I am the one who stepped into the snare thus I should face it by myself.

Show is over

Now I realize the problem, the problem is I take it too seriously leading to a lot of assumptions been made at the end.

All these assumptions made a lot misunderstanding.

From the beginning till the end, this is just a monkey show.

I am tired now..

My life is upside down..

I started everything,so that's the punishment for me?

I can't take it anymore..

No one force me, I am the one who willing to enter this monkey cage.

Performing monkey show to everyone for teasing me...

Did everything behind there and allowing people called me "Silly boy"..

Maybe I should awake now, I am not the main character that should appear in your life.

Just a monkey that trying to make you happy.

Now the show is over, everything is set to passive mode, you have your freedom, I will find back my life.

Sorry to let you feel that way.